In this, we feel like the Nazis in "Raiders of the Lost Ark" who are dealing with a power that is not to be trifled with, and, as I said, she knows some of her readers feel this way. In fact, it was only a few pages after I realized what she was doing and got that whiff of fear that she acknowledged that some would undoubtedly feel uncomfortable with her models, as if she was rooting around in someone's very private space. But, she adds, so be it: as the mystics know, sometimes God comes full blast into their lives with every detail of existence, whether they are ready or not. Let me say that I am eager for the full truth but hardly ready for it. Then again, perhaps no one is.
We will not be hit with Divine Fire from any book, however - but still, what she turns up is shocking. We find, well into a complex manipulation of figures, that Mercy is at the heart of God - and as such, Mercy is the intrinsic "tincture" to the material world itself. Not a feeling or eminence, but the actual heart of substance. In going back over the previous pages, we see how she has arrived at that while we were asleep in a way, taking the warm-up to be but another trick of logic. But it is not. What she is showing without apology is that the being or essence of God is everything - that material reality is not a reflection of God or a distant creation, but is the actual heart of God. And it is here, now, always in creation at every second and within us.
Lest we miss the point, she becomes more specific still: to make herself understood, she quotes Tomberg, another theologian: "Modern science has come to the understanding that matter is only condensed energy - which, moreover, was known by alchemists and hermeticists thousands of years ago. Sooner or later science will discover that what it calls "energy" is only condensed psychic force - which discovery will lead in the end to the establishment of the fact that all psychic force is the "condensation," purely [and] simply, of consciousness, i.e., spirit." (this in itself is an entire topic - imagine the secular scientist discovering that he has been working to retrieve ancient sacred knowledge all along!)
She, the author, could not be clearer - what she believes she is dealing with is the very substance of creation, and with it, the very heart of creation itself - the Unmanifest who's burning desire is to create and know itself in all its aspects, which are limitless. It is this desire that is at the heart of my fear, at the very least - that this "fire" of creation, one that is great enough to create all, is burning within me as well. We then understand what the mystics meant of the unquenchable fire of God, and how its vision was so terrifying, as Moses well knew on Mount Sinai. And here is the author unraveling the code that could provide us access. I read on, waiting with awe for the Ark of the Covenant to burn me to ashes. FK