Hard stuff, really, but all already said by the great spiritual leaders, including Jesus. Give away your other cloak? Leave your family and home? Yes; all are inconsequential, and if they are holding you back , are not worth it. This includes the objects of our ambitions, which I now find particularly hard - this website, for instance, was started primarily as an attempt to reach an audience for my current book and the several more to come. I do have ambition. And we can pray for our success, or, if you do not believe in prayer, work harder and harder for it and perhaps hope for that special ingredient, luck; but if it is not compatible with the prime directive, cosmic consciousness, don't count on any extra help. And if it comes, it may come as a back-handed hard lesson. How many have been ruined by achieved goals? Conversely, how many have been helped towards God by success? Perhaps many on both counts, but we cannot see the results of success or failure until one or the other happens.
Still, we must try - and pray or hope that our desires are consistent with cosmic design.
Of the one thing still unanswered: Why? Why the trial and sometimes torture to re-achieve what always AM? In the face of all-knowing eternity, our lives, even our concepts of eternity, are nothing, not a dream, but dream-like in their ephemerality. But why the dream of God, of us, in the first place? In the Old Testament we are given a very human god wanting company, but that concept seems far too limited. No, there is another game afoot. It just hasn't come to me what, and may never; it may be the mystery that must remain so. FK